to be 37 and be sitting on the sofa trying to get yourself to bed but you can’t because you keep thinking of other things to write down just because you can like how you just wrote a thank you note to chocolate because you love chocolate and that’s possibly probably why you have chocolate in the fridge and you have it in the fridge because you like it there because you like it cold and you have good chocolate in the fridge no you have Beyond Good chocolate in the fridge because you like it no because you love it but you also have date-sweetened chocolate chips and those might be the ones you opt to have more of right before filling your hydroflask with ice water and turning off the lights and stepping in step with the gentle thud of the dishwasher and making your way upstairs at last, resisting locking the cars again because your husband already did even though you really will have to resist because it’s like a tick to do it again just to be totally sure but you’ll have the taste of the chocolate in your mouth and the comfort of the quiet all around you as walk up the steps thinking of how it’s fun to be 37 and picking the chocolate you want when you want just because you can, and you do.